Hang on tight!

Trust in Lord in all your ways and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths.

There are many people that I trust. But I can’t say that there has ever been a specific time where I have had to trust someone with my life. I’ve never experienced one of those scenes from a movie where you both have to descend down the face of a cliff to avoid being shot by machine guns, and you have to climb onto the back of the person with the rope. You know, those scenes where the guy tells the girl to get on his back and hold on tight. She replies with “You’re crazy!!” He looks her in the eye and the gunfire pauses for dramatic effect as he says “Just trust me.”
Ya, never been there. I wonder which people I would trust with my life like that. It makes me question not only my trust of humanity outside the people I’m close to, but also my trust in my savior.
So many times I “lean on my own understanding”. I plan out the details of my life without making sure it’s what God wants me to do. I act as though I am omniscient – as if I am the one in control of the universe rather than him.
There have been moments – and they are becoming more frequent – when I feel as though God is looking me in the eye, offering me his hand, and saying “Just trust me.” A year ago I would have honestly told you that trusting God wasn’t such a difficult thing to do. I suppose I had never really been required to fully rely on Him. But now that I’m going through a more realistic part of life, I’m realizing just how hard it is to trust him. It’s not a piece of cake. I’ve finally had the revelation that the more trust I put in God, the less I have to rely on myself. In the end, relying on myself is not a good thing anyways. I consistently let myself down, and no matter how hard I try, there are always some things that I will never be able to accomplish with my own strength and determination.
As I currently sit on the airplane above the clouds, I see the red sun setting behind the mountain peaks and I wonder why I have difficulty placing my circumstances in the hands of the Creator. But despite whatever the reason may be, I’m attempting to overcome it. Not because I have any ability myself, but because I’m choosing to reach out and grab the strong hand in front of me and say “I trust you.”